Savanna is so excited about Santa Claus and she really is full of belief and wonder. It is inspiring to watch her go down after chemo and get back up. She is so resilient...I do believe more than the rest of us. Her brothers are awesome, sweet precious boys. Brian and Steven, so very brave, I am at a loss at my own inadequacies but believe me I do not think I would be here without God, He does give us strength but often the circumstances remain.My dear friend has inoperable lung cancer but she says she will survive and overcome and I believe her. She reminds me of Savanna...not a quitter. She just stands in her belief and she stands firm. My daughter Brittany and Savanna's father, Andy are troupers because you see this war is long, oh so long, it goes on and on, she will be in chemo until August 2009. She gets a MRI on Dec 23rd and I pray for no metastasis of the cancer. She has a light in her eyes that sparkles and shines in the darkness. Her hair has not grown back. Honestly, there have been health problems with my husband and I and I surely am riding a giant roller coaster. I want to get off and sit for a while and put my feet in the creek and rest. I tell you even a deeper truth, my heart is broken every time I look at her, just broken into a million pieces but I will march on with my family and we will have Christmas, God willing. My sister Leslie has been awesome, AWESOME. some friends go away and some new ones come, I wonder if it hurts too much for some and for others what you are speaks so loudly I can't hear you, not my words but so true. Savanna will have a calender in a few weeks than Ann Jowers was instrumental in putting together. Thank you so much for your prayers and blessings to all. God is still on the throne and that keeps me sane and brings me through. Blessing To All Melly