Savanna has her own website now, www.Princess-Savanna.com pray NOW, pass the word and the website all over the world. Please, my heart is breaking, a broken and contrite heart God will not cast down, I am broken and I am contrite and I am humble. She was admitted to the hospital in Augusta last night, vomiting, her hair is falling out, dehydrated. swelling in her little brain from the radiation, Please please pray. I am empty. I want you to please pray. Pray for the parents. Lift her up to the heavens, please. I know others are suffering and I know God is not a respecter of persons. I want the victory, the healing, but I submit all that I am to the Father. It is His plan, I am praying for mercy but please know mercy comes in different forms. He does have a plan. I am praying for strength, He does give us that. I am desperate for the Father's touch. I prayed with Brittany earlier and I felt the Lord. Yeah thought I walk though the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil for Thou art with me. He is with us. He is the great I am. Melly
Cancer seems ever where,my secretary, her husband and my grand baby, just like a looming dark cloud. There are more examples, out of 12 women that work together it is touching 4 lives either directly or indirectly. Savanna is starting to have the side effects, vomiting, skin looks sunburned, loss of appetite and not feeling very well. Week two with four to go and then Chemotherapy. Cancer will touch you directly or indirectly in your lifetime or you are unique, I am not unique. It is crushing to see your daughter of 28 bear this heavy load and her young husband. It is like a war and each week is a battle. It is the roller coaster of a life time. It is draining and it is moments on the mountain top of faith. It is crazy. It is doubt and it is knowing God is there. It is real. You have too jump from the mountain into God's arms or it is too much to carry. You have to leap, not seeing where you are falling. Trust in the Lord or fall flat on your face, quite simple the choice. You may fall either way but God will go with you. He is with me in the valley and on the mountain. Every step, every where you turn, He is there. I will close by saying cancer is evil. It is not fair for this little girl to be battling for her life but life is not fair. Miracles happen and only God knows if Savanna is going to get one. They must home school the boys this fall to keep them from bringing home germs as Savanna will have a weakened immune system. They need to get the carpet out of their house and get either vinyl or leather or some sort of furniture without fabric. They need rest. They need a break. They need hope. They need Savanna to be OK but thousands need the same thing every single day. It is immense the pain from this creature called cancer. Melly
It might seem there is no correlation but, ahh, I got you! There is a thread if you will follow it with me. Savannah has been diagnosed with Medullablastoma, an aggressive form of brain cancer...starting a year of wretching treatment including six weeks of radiation and then the remainder of the year, Chemotherapy. They sound ominous enough for me, but then there is Strawberry, Melly, and the big wonderful GOD!!! Plus, Jonathan plays a pretty major role in this story. I went to a show and there were these soulful gentle greyhounds about 6 months ago and I stepped into the pen with them and talked to the workers, well, Melly melted, just like butter, and I only had about 60.00 dollars left but they got more of it than Melly. I talked and none seemed just right for my pack so I would mention it on the best dog list ever that I wanted to adopt a senior grey and I could never get on with Jonathan, the whippet AKA general dog whisperer. One day I finally got his email and I said I would like Strawberry. She had been a racer and then brood bitch, bred and bred and bred and since she was used up, they could put her down which ever way they choose so Jonathan saved her life literally. The time was coming close for Melly to give back and get her delicious Strawberry, the email came. Melly, she has had a stroke and can't walk and I fear she may not survive this and if she does I will most likely need to keep her. Well, I was stunned and devastated, that was to be my dog, was I off spiritually, I was so sure and so excited, Strawberry is no ordinary dog, she is Strawberry in a hat!
Now, you thought I was kidding but I do not kid about such luscious pearls as Ms. S and she got better over time and one day Jonathan posted she was walking and I thought what is he doing with my dog. He better give me my Strawbery and I contacted Jonathan and she came to Atlantis. Tonight this very night, she played with a ball and last night a rat ( not a real rat) It was a toy, she looked like she had been injected with drugs she was so happy to see Jonathan last week when he came for a visit so the point is HOPE, Hope is a living thing, please give Savannah hope with your hearts and prayers. It might be the way out of this dark night into a princess's rainbow. Join me in prayer that the radiation will be minimal or zilch from the treatment. God is an awesome God, I stand on that. Melly
That little face gives me hope in a GOD that is all I need for our dear Savannah.
There are always heros in every story and I have several. They know who there are and they know why. One particular red headed woman has stood by me through it all, all of it, thick, thin, fat, loss, gain, fear, joy, there she is standing with me and in the dawn of this cancer there she is like a glorious butterfly. She is the essence of color and light in a dark day. She comes and she heals wounds with her words. Her love is deep and it flows, her love flows, she never does not love. It flows like a river whether I am up or down on this roller coaster and there is so much story to tell yet but I am unable to tell it. I will, I pray, it is worth the telling for the wisdom and life lessons contained within the story, to help others. She knows, she stands anyway. She knows every mosaic in the story, she is named encouragement. That is what I shall call her. She is not a taker, she does not know how to be selfish. She is the joy of my heart, yes, she is. Blessed friendship in the storm. Melly
Tonight I want to share the love I have received, so much, enough to fill an ocean. I am so grateful for the support I have been blessed to have rain down on me. It is immense and unending. Strangers have, I imagine become life long friends. I am so very fortunate to know each of you and the prayers, have lifted me from the depths of despair and shock to a place of peace that I TREASURE! Truly, I have no idea why, I guess mercy and love in people's hearts. I feel supported on every side and I talk to Savannah about the angels and Jesus and she nods and grins. She walked with assistance last night, no balance but she did kick a ball while holding on to the sofa. Steven had fun playing with the three pups I have here this weekend, he took a real interest in everything I was doing from nails to leash breaking the puppies. Brian got a cool haircut and so did Steven. Kathleen will be picking up her puppy and Steven said, we need to keep all three and I said we are keeping the one named Savannah and he said they did not want to leave....LOL. The eyes of a child...so honest and pure. Savannah begins radiation on June 9th, please continue to pray, it is the reason she got out of the ICU after 10 days, no doubt, none, zero, you did it friends, you and God for we are His hands and feet. Just thank you from the bottom of my soul and heart. Melly
She has to go back Monday, that keeps playing in my head to get a mold made for radiation treatment...a mold of her little head. Radiation starts June 9th. Here we go..ready or not...here it comes. They have moved the date up 3 weeks. God is so present...like a butterfly flitting in and out but always hovering. I feel Him. I know He is here but His thoughts are His own. His plan is His. I so want Him to share it but that is not God, He is the great I am. I have had the boys and they so need attention and kindness, her brothers, Steven and Brian but I can tell they are angry and unsure. They are scared, they are after all little boys. I AM INADEQUATE, I am unable to be and do all I need to do. I am empty and yet so full of the passion to make a way. I am on a roller coaster but God is riding with me. When I submit ALL to HIM is the only peace I know. I feel so sad for children, all of them with Cancer, with defects, with impairments mentally and physically...with pain. Please see them all and pray and touch the heart of God. Children that know poverty and abuse. Cry out for them as we all must. Stand, Be still and Know He is God, how hard a thing for a doer but that is my instruction. Please join in prayer with me and our voices will be heard...Melly
Savannah got presents form Jen, Mary Ann, Leslie ( my sister), and a check from dear Mary. I went and we opened each present and she loved the pictures...she got an angel bear, we are praying and we know God can do it but the answer is not aways yes, Friends, He has a plan and it is HIS plan. We must believe but can you move the wind, set the stars, no, only God, She cannot use her left hand or sit in a stable manner, she can't walk and she talks very little but she does smile. My son in law got very depressed yesterday and why not, I pulled into the drive with the gifts and my daughter had her cell phone in her hand to call me to come now. His heart rate was 145, fear is a real demon, my friends. Andy my son in law melted down, we all will have our moments. That was God, I did not know why I felt such an urge to go now, right in that moment, God sent me to pray for them and be the one to share my life with my son in law, overcoming and I felt God there. God is in it, over it, below it, on top of it. He is here. I am starting a foundation for Savannah and then another child and then another and on and on. I am standing on the ROCK but I cannot tell the ROCK what He must do but I do have hope and ask for mercy. Instead of a four week reprieve she must go back Monday for the mold to be made for her Radiation and then on June 9th, the radiation starts. I am noticing people are drawn in or out of this type of pain depending on their level of heart, there ability to stand the pain of watching and hoping and there own burdens. I am blessed with so much love around me and believe me it helps, it helps alot. Melly